Trial run

I was doing a trial run with two applicants in a quick Kara with 2 healers and some unexceptional tanking on my part. Nightbane, wow, just couldn't target the guy nor predict where he'd land, combined with slow response-timing due to a mysterious seasonal fatigue = bloody mess of dead players. It's not that I don't care because I'm a heartless bitch; it's that I've become cynical to the expenditure of raiding. Consumables, repair costs, a few trigger-happy people, eh.

To the point, I extended an invite to the holy priest after much hemming and hawing. An officer pointed out his flaw of dying to threat-sensitive situations like the aggro wipe of Nightbane. I asked the applicant about it; he mentioned how he took a hunter's misdirection for granted with this particular fight. That fanagle poked at me...if we clearly don't have a hunter, why would you react to a situation as if you did have a hunter? Would you heal as you did before if there wasn't a druid who would innervate you?

It was me and another officer on; we came up with the hesitant answer of "Yes, let's invite him". In my fluxing degrees of indecisiveness, I called one of the lead guild officers; no response. In hindsight, we could have taken our time making a decision; I don't have to accommodate an officer asking about whether we should invite a person who is mediocre in healing. His redeeming quality is that he presents a drive to learn.

Hindsight is everything when I cringe at his healing. I hope he actually doesn't believe he's doing that well. And when he got taken for a mana injector, buying one charge for 60g from the AH, it made me pause. And that he actually thinks the effort put into complaining to Blizzard GMs will come to a pleasant fruition of a resolution to accommodate for his inobservant behavior, that made me wince and pause some more. Priests need to be observant of minor details like cleansing, when to shield, when to take focus off of the tank, etc.

But I'm also suspicious of every new applicant. I'm jealous of protecting the guild's best interests. This priest seems like a decent sort of guy. However, I have to say that I wish that I could have had a better gauge to measure a healer. I have to trust that he'll try to become a better healer, that he won't snap when the pressure is strong, that he will know he's capable of more. Much like I have to trust myself to do all that.