Temptation, thou sprout from the tongue and languish in dreams.

What I learned when I was young:

Attraction isn't sexual euphoria and vice versa.
Sexual euphoria doesn't fade over time.
Attraction will hold you until you can't deal with it anymore.
Love has nothing to do with these two physical states of being.
However, love enhances them like $500 an ounce truffles.

I am shamefully thrilled to receive such consideration of my abilites.

Him: I'm booking my travel to *** a few weeks from now. But I'm finding it's like grocery shopping when you're hungry. Because I shamefully keep wondering whether I should take the ***->NYC flight with the 2.5 hour layover.

I am a bad man.

And I respond accordingly.

Him: No no no! Your line is "that's a great daydream, but of course you know it can't happen, I can't take a full day off of work to be with you, people would find out, etc., etc." Not "ooh that makes me horny, when can you be here"

Me: *clears throat*
no no no!
How was that?

Him: Unconvincing.

Me: Yep I'm grinning the entire time I wrote that

Him: I read that as "No, no, no, why would I take a full day of work to have you trapped in my place tied to my bed where I could tickle your balls with my tongue and rub your head on the back of my throat until you were delirious"
which, as I said, is very unconvincing.

Gathering thoughts on Black Temple

I'm trying to write notes for the third guild podcast and I find it impossible to concentrate on the flow of text that I must write. I have plenty to say but hardly have the patience to figure out how to structure it so I write in this blog to let it come out without self-censorship of my vocal/mental voice.

It's been a pretty good July.

Mother Sharaz
From the beginning, getting the equipment together was akin to a frentic backstage fashion show where there's a mad rush to get to the specialists with all the elements in its proper place. The trash was unique which made many cynical raiders glad as they were sick of the same old, same old. We had issues with the Mother Sharaz addon which worked out once Thursley figured out that the announce function was off. We still need to work out how the addon works but once people got the hang of the teleportation and moving in the proper direction, Mother Sharaz was down within 4 tries. My role as a tank was to spam holy shield, judge wisdom and auto-swing, exorcise and consecrate when I can and watch the main tank to pop the Lay of Hands when appropriate.

Illidari Council
Illidari Council is down, despite the odds that it shouldn't have worked with my pally shield being up. Last night, the raid leader tested out it on some mobs...it shouldn't have worked as well as it did but somehow we succeeded by pure conviction. It's High King Maulgar 2.0...the pull and getting away from the Area of Effect abilities was what made this fight. I have to say it was a personal challenge for myself to use my abilities within a merciless period of time. Creating specific macros and focus targets helped my pull. It took multiple attempts, quite a few elixirs, excellent healing and vocal communication to make it work.

Today
I'm not sure why but I feel shaken to my core. Like I could physically fall apart if someone should touch me even with a slight touch. I feel like a mesh of spider silk, easily whisked aside, my feelings fragmented into nothingness. I feel the need to be mute, to not interact with other people. Even meeting my girlfriend for our usual lunch date took a lot out of me.

Interpersonal Relations
I'm having a problem with a player. I realized that he pushes my buttons and I with my insufferable rage, respond accordingly. It reminds me of this article: http://www.nytimes.com/2008/08/03/magazine/03trolls-t.html with his attitude. Does my distress really amuse him so? Or is this what he's used to?