Friday, December 12, 2008
One Liners
I've been whittling down my Favorites at work and looking over drafts of posts that I never published for some reason or another or they simply speak for themselves. I'm labeling them "One Liners".
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Detached
Oh ho boy, yes it's been a while since I posted. I need to get back on my meds in a bad way. It's not that I've been particularly down but I've had to exercise a lot more mindfulness in what I do because of what my therapist likens it to an irrational chemical flood that occurs as a conditioned response to most everything in my life.
I decided to write to keep track of my sickness. It's allergies. Like, please kill me allergies. First two weeks, I was sniffing, sneezing with dripping nose all the time. Third week, my throat was killing me and I couldn't sleep because of the pain that built up in my ear but wasn't actually an ear ache or an infection of my tonsils. Fourth week, my friend gets me some Biaxin for a week and the pain goes away but the dripping and coughing is non-stop. Fifth week, I'm gasping for breath. It's not pleasant to slur my words but be cognizant of it.
So I go to a "real" doctor (as opposed to my friend, the ER doctor) and he broke it down for me. I have allergies and may have had some respiratory complications with mono and bronchitis but that I have to deal with allergies which may occur with mold and/or the fire next door which I can still smell. So I'm eating my cortisones (Prednisone) and sniffing my Patanase and Flonaze and thinking, wow, I've been miserable for 5 weeks because of allergies. I'd like a HEPA air filterer like right now but the one I have my eye on is $350. I'm so freaking miserable with the scent of caustic chemicals up my delicate tissues. Ugh.
So that's my sickness story yay! I may be scared of every thing else in my life but I can think clearer now yay!
I called my temp agency, let them know that I'm getting let go on the 31st, and am excited at the possibility of getting money.
I got invited to a New Year's Eve Party being thrown by the same ER doctor friend. I hate her for using a placebo but it didn't hurt so eh. Anyways, I'm relieved and saddened. I hate indulging in fuck buddy sessions. I end up paying the price with little chunks of my heart with my incessant thinking, "Why am I in this situation again?" Fucking isn't necessarily an unpleasant situation and it's all on the outlook but I'd really like to try something different for once. It's boring and not as illict as it could be. In fact, monogamy is a lot more scarier :P
Don't get me started on WoW.
I decided to write to keep track of my sickness. It's allergies. Like, please kill me allergies. First two weeks, I was sniffing, sneezing with dripping nose all the time. Third week, my throat was killing me and I couldn't sleep because of the pain that built up in my ear but wasn't actually an ear ache or an infection of my tonsils. Fourth week, my friend gets me some Biaxin for a week and the pain goes away but the dripping and coughing is non-stop. Fifth week, I'm gasping for breath. It's not pleasant to slur my words but be cognizant of it.
So I go to a "real" doctor (as opposed to my friend, the ER doctor) and he broke it down for me. I have allergies and may have had some respiratory complications with mono and bronchitis but that I have to deal with allergies which may occur with mold and/or the fire next door which I can still smell. So I'm eating my cortisones (Prednisone) and sniffing my Patanase and Flonaze and thinking, wow, I've been miserable for 5 weeks because of allergies. I'd like a HEPA air filterer like right now but the one I have my eye on is $350. I'm so freaking miserable with the scent of caustic chemicals up my delicate tissues. Ugh.
So that's my sickness story yay! I may be scared of every thing else in my life but I can think clearer now yay!
I called my temp agency, let them know that I'm getting let go on the 31st, and am excited at the possibility of getting money.
I got invited to a New Year's Eve Party being thrown by the same ER doctor friend. I hate her for using a placebo but it didn't hurt so eh. Anyways, I'm relieved and saddened. I hate indulging in fuck buddy sessions. I end up paying the price with little chunks of my heart with my incessant thinking, "Why am I in this situation again?" Fucking isn't necessarily an unpleasant situation and it's all on the outlook but I'd really like to try something different for once. It's boring and not as illict as it could be. In fact, monogamy is a lot more scarier :P
Don't get me started on WoW.
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