Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Video card yay
start > run > “dxdiag” > video tab > top left box
there are 3 bus’ used for video cards, PCI, which is typically a white connector, agp, which is typically brown, and PCI-Express is the newest, it is black.
if your computer is over 6-8 months old it probably doesn’t have the last one pci-e
Thanks ex-guildie whom I kicked out :P
Friday, July 11, 2008
This is what happens when I don't play WoW.

If you have daughters, tell them to RUN if they should see this boy.
10. Lied about attending SUNY Binghamton...he attended SUNY New Paltz. What?
9. Wouldn't specify where in Queens he lived when I asked directly...he mumbled "Queens". Hell, it's freaking Astoria which I heard when he asked a cab driver. Nothing to be ashamed of. I told him where I was from because we were right there in my neighborhood.
8. Did I mention he was groping me the whole time? I had to punch him on the arm more than once to get him to stop.
7. Walking down the street to walk him to the train station, he tries to wrap his arm around me from behind and kiss my ear. He sucks at my eardrum which HURTS. No apology. And it STILL HURTS.
6. I'm 5'5", he's 6'5". I was way stronger than him when I wrestled out of his grip more than a few times. *Smirk*
5. He asked me twice when I came to the States. Had already told him twice that I was born here. Thrice he asked me where my parents lived. NJ...is that so hard to remember? I don't think he ever let me finish a sentence.
4. Within the first hour of meeting, he asked if he could stay over for a nice home-cooked meal and for the night.
3. Since he allegedly broke his phone on the subway platform on the way to meet me, I bought him a first round and was about to call it a night. No mention of gratitude.
2. He insisted on a second round along with Jack Daniel shots. Then he threw down a 20 after slowly slowly slowly drawing out his wallet and was about to walk away. I had to stop him and tell him to ask for the tab from the bartender which then he looked at me blankly. Being so eager to get away, I get the bartender to get the tab for us which then he sneakily hides his 20 right back into his wallet. I look around for the 20 which then he looks around at anywhere BUT me so I give him my STARE OF DEATH for 2 minutes straight which then he feebly jokes about "if looks could kill". I motion to walk away to leave him with the tab. He draws out that wallet again and threw down the 20. The tab was 21. I wanted to make my getaway so instead of arguing, I just paid the difference.
1. While he was trying to get salacious with my neck, he was whispering over and over about how he plays to WIN (win at what?) and that with World of Warcraft, I wouldn't need that shit anymore. That if I were his gf, he wouldn't ever let me play. LOSER.
At least I have a story :)
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Roster:
Tank: Me (pally tank),druid tank
Healer: pally healer, holy priest
DPS: hunter, mage, rogue, elemental shaman, warlock, dps warrior
This ZA brought out the worst in me. Based on past PUG runs where we were able to get the fourth chest, I was convinced that 2 healers are the way to go. It puts a tremendous strain on them but with the extra DPS, it makes the run so much faster. So I pouted my way into a better group dynamic. "Do it this way or I'm out".
On the way to the bear, at the gate, Soothing Animal DOES shave off seconds so I sighed my way to convincing the druid to do it my way and practically screamed for everyone to get a move on.
In short, we slaughtered every boss, my inner tension building with every death or stupid pull made by jumping the hut windows and the hunter not dismissing his pet. I run out of mana and I can feel the seconds squeezing by in the hourglass as I drink. Yet I would still run in to the invisible lynxes with 18% mana...shrug.
We had 5 minutes for the last boss and as flustered as I felt, we owned it with one minute remaining. We rolled and I won with a 93. Have to say I'm in love with my bear mount.
However, I was relieved to hear that people enjoyed themselves tremendously, even though I acted with tiny temper tantrums. :P One raider who was truly pissed that our 25 man raid ended early, said this was the most fun he's had in a long time. Definitely pleased.
Basic suggestions:
1. Roll Need if you want an item for an UG to save time. However, in the beginning of ZA, remind people to have 4 bag slots open or more. One of the warriors lost his UG because his bags were probably full and didn't notice it until the end of the 4th chest.
2. Take all consumables as if it's a 25 man progression raid.
3. The kill order (ex. Eagle Boss, Bear Boss, Dragonhawk, then Lynx) is a good thing to lay out for the entire raid ahead of time.
4. Remind people to mount up often.
5. If you're a pally tank, heal thyself and often. No need to put more strain on the healers when you got abilities too.
6. Get someone to test ambient sound ahead of time for the Eagle boss.
7. Use your Save Mes! It's a short run.
8. MC is your friend. Shadow priest should have more than enough spell hit for it to last and last. But be sure to hover with a BOP when it breaks.
Axe Thrower: Axe Volley - Tosses axes at targets between 8-40 yards. Hits a bunch of targets for between 2000-3500 damage very quickly.
Flame Caster: Haste - Increases spell cast speed by 300%. Fire Volley - You know it and you hate it. With the haste buff up this can do ~2500 damage to everything nearby every .4 seconds or so. Devastating.
Medicine man: I don't think you can use his immunity or healing totems, but he's got a powerful chain heal (up to 7500 on the first bounce) and a lightning bolt single target hit.
Trainer: Incite Frenzy - increases attack speed of a feral druid or possibly hunter pet by 200%.
9. Let the pally tank's consecrate tick at least once.
10. Be flexible and forgiving about aggro. They have a repair bill to worry about afterwards.
11. Soothe Animal is great. Make sure your druid knows what it even looks like.
12. Jumping huts is a skill that some will fuck up. But don't let hunters jump without a reminder to dismiss their pets. And don't let people whine about their races being too big; everyone fits.
13. If multiple mobs are on a pally tank, the warrior tank or druid tank should not be pulling off a mob but instead, dpsing as hard as possible as it leaves the healers one person to heal rather than two.
14. Like the MC abilities, research your trash mobs.
Friday, July 4, 2008
It's been a long while
I stopped writing out of fear of intimacy. I'm trying :P
So a stranger kissed my hand in the middle of the street this afternoon. Jumped up behind me while I was on my way back to work with my lunch. Startled the shit out of me. He wanted to know if I was Korean, I asked him why, he explained something or the other about me looking just like his friend, he asked for my name, stuck out his hand and held my hand to kiss it gently on the knuckles. I told him I'd give him an email address. He didn't want one so when it became clear that I wasn't giving him my number, he tried to get me to take his number. Followed me into my building where I work. Turns out he was going to another department. Heh.
Then while explaining this to a gf during a work break, a tall blackhaired woman motioned at me while passing me on the sidewalk and loudly exclaimed, "THIS is what life is all about!" Perhaps it was the giddy smile on my face.
I just got back from a pub/birthday part at a tiny apartment on Prince Street, after sweating my ass off. I'm drying off naked, thinking about my noob sub. I am having doubts, plain and simple. I don't doubt his abilities, nor my want for Domming/topping. It's been a long while with this guy fast.
A former fuck buddy shared that he feels obligated as an American to rent a porno titled "Porn on the 4th of July". Good for him.
What am I getting for traveling out to a 4 hour round trip commute to top a man for? Am I insane? What worth has he shown that proves that my efforts will be for me and not for him? I have a nagging feeling that I'm being taken for granted again. I will not be put in that position again.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
A letter my friend received
Hey that is no problem at all. I shouldnt have kept u waiting like
that. As tired as I was I still couldn't sleep AT ALL last night, or the night before...
This is in reference to my friend asking for feedback about his picture (Why, I suspect he wanted to hear that he was attractive).
There is something on my mind that I have to tell you. and im so afraid to. I do not like hurting people. that is not any of my intentions in life. I am devastated to hurt.
Notice the whole, "hating to hurt people but I did it anyways".
But over the time that we have met. I have Lied to u.. Ima start off by saying im 15...
He said that he was a 32 year old man with a wife and child.
My brother *** is very controlling over me u could say... And he has stood behind my back almost 3/4 of the time i have talked to u and told me what to say and ask..
His brother was supposedly a 34 year old divorced guy with a child. And what kind of younger brother actually listens to his older brother?
I didnt want to Peep into ur private life at all! but i guess *** did for some
reason.
I didn't want to. But my brother did! How lame of an excuse is that!
But u are the sweetest, nicest, caring, Funniest guy i have EVER met in my
entire life.
And I'm clearly a dipshit.
I didnt want to go this far into our friendship. but im afraid to say no to
***. He is not at the house right now (he is 17 btw) he is at work. He does not know i am typing this letter to u. Please do Not tell him i told u this. If u want to Gkick me from guild or w/e you have the most right to do so ever. I would understand completely.
Well now would be a good time, because apparently your testicles just came into being.
Again (my name is *****)
Way to reinforce that you've been lying to him the whole time.
I Do not like hurting people specially people like you.
But you do like hurting people not like him.
I felt like sometimes we almost new eachother in RL. But if u wish never
to speak to me again. I understand that too. Just please go along with **** and
act like he is 34 with a kid not married or divorced =/.
Yes you felt so close to him...especially while lying. And now you want him to lie for your sake and pretend everything is the same?
THe lies I did not tell u where the ones where he wasnt there.. Like We live on
5 acres. wwe do live in a gated community. I have 3 brothers. I did lose my
virginity at 15.
So I was honest with you about these things that are non-consequential...
Oh but one other thing i want to tell u... i dnt know if ur gonna be freaked out
or not. but Please dnt tell ne1 this either.. Im bi-curious..... but my goal is
to just move to a big city when i am older.. my uncle is gay. he is 47 tho.
Totally and utterly irrelevant. So my friend is gay; what does it mean for this kid?
lol. Again i cant apologize enough!! This is not my doing... Well it is.
but not what i wanted to do. Your sucha nice guy its just gonna hurt me to see
if ur hurt or not. I hated intruding into ur private life. cuz thats ur
business. And Also, I would totally understand if u Gkick me or dont speak to me
ever again. I am very very sorry.
Honestly, I believe this kid was responsible for the whole thing. And the fact that he intruded on his private life anyways? Well duh, it's his business!
I put this up because in the end, my friend will be compelled to try to help this misguided kid. And I know the cycle of his trying to heal this kid's wounds when it's his wounds he's trying to patch up, will bring no good end to him because the kid already got his trust as much as my friend denies it.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Avoiding guild introspection
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Hoohee - Real Life YAY!
Ever since I've been back on my medication, I've felt stabler in my thoughts, felt safer. Thoughts of self-harm has lessened tremendously as I can effectively control the impulses and emotions before they escalate. I still have 3 more months to feel the full effect.
Besides leading my high school reunion solo, working two jobs and trying to reconnect after being emotionally estranged from my family for decades, I'm pretty exhausted. WoW seems to be the only thing where I can get a glimmer of enjoyment. Even self-maintance is repetitive and a chore. WoW adds the pounds, exercise takes them off (somewhat).
Maybe after 9 months, I'm ready to start into the fun of finding companionship. Yay dating. Even now I chuckle at myself for being so reluctant. Crazy boys. And crazy girls. It could be fun, it could be boring.
Maybe I'm not so ready after all. It's only now that I can understand my propensity for falling for impossible guys and letting go of it is difficult. I haven't had enough of this taste of unrequited infatuation. But I'm getting there.