Silly willy

I'm trying to come up with coherent sentences to be appealing but I seem to have slowed down into an introspective, dim mood. I wonder if I'm getting stupider.

So turns out...

Turns out I was pretty wrong in my construct.
Turns out I got what I wanted all this time and was blind to it all.

Thanks.

Hate

If what I did was right, why do I feel so much hate? Will this hate finally go away from a week? A month? Maybe if I'm lucky, a year? Will it infect my perspective of the very people I love and who encouraged me? Will it age me? Will I remain cold inside, having no room for warmth or affection? Will I fall back into my depression, languid and still while raving in my head?